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[15 Sep 2005|08:39pm] |
"In all my days"
"I think there's something that you just feel
is missing from your life." - Richey James Edwards
It has been one day of change when there was
a cloud burst.
A desolation
was pouring down my lips.
And i stopped smiling.
What have I done to my consciousness
when i realised
there is no ray of sunshine,
only green mixed with yellow above?
(It was fall.
Children have been forgotten.
A hush fell over the air.)
"The only thing people cling to is the past."
The past when the funerals, death and clocks
hadn't existed.
So many things were born of vacancy.
You die when you stumble back.
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| Clean my friends list |
[26 Aug 2005|05:27pm] |
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music |
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the music - bleed from within |
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Yep i'm going to do that i guess. So please everyone who wants to stay there tell me.
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[20 Jun 2005|12:08pm] |
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awake |
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The connells - '74-'75 |
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I stay at home today. Im supposed to be doing this big huge school book but i dont know if i want to. On Saturday me and ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) slow__drug went to a club but somehow the party that was supposed to be there wasn't..instead there was some hip hop gig and breakdance party for 30 zł (about 7 euro) so we were kinda pissed off. we dicided to go and buy some food and we were just walking across Gdynia, talking and eating.
And some time ago...about 1 and a half week ago we spent three days in the house in the forest and here are all pictures:
( pictures )
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| you never knew the smell of concrete |
[15 Jun 2005|09:38pm] |
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mood |
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drained |
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music |
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colour of fire/ the arcade of fire |
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the fall you made me stab your heart
"pretending" you said "is the most common thing in peoples lives"
and i swallowed your words, trying not to forget this sentence.
i couldn't wake up while you were siting on one side of a bed.
i made you wait in cold, not expecting you will just leave the room.
walking across the hunging bridge, passing girls by, crossing arterials
i was eating the awkward time of silence, naked and shivering.
being fucked up beyond all reality i stood there with axe in my back
and oh god if i wasnt so afraid to not hold my breath and to turn pale
i would. if only i could slap the fear's face.
i wasted 19 years searching for deformity of shame
in which i was brought up.
you gave a speech how cruel is the shape of this world
and how you could just go to heaven after passing away.
i did not believe in your artifice.
i answered with weassel words
you were a tissue of lies, i was looking in your box and picking one
to make the sky bright blue again
while you were siting on my laps discovering how woman's
neck tastes and you took my crop top off asking me
to abandon what we already had.
and oh my i was begging god to let me pray for this moment.
the only moment in which i loved you.
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[11 Jun 2005|11:38am] |
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music |
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animals - dont let me be misunderstood |
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im starting to miss everyone from my school. im sad. i dont know how to think positivly..
ill try.
i got your letter and card Trowa sweetheart! its long and i like long letters :D it was very vey vey nice to read it. i luv ya hun :*:*
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[27 May 2005|08:40am] |
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crappy |
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music |
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kasabian - i.d. |
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So yeah...im down..
i dont know what happened.
i thought im normal again and lord how wrong i was. damn it!
i will try anyway. i will pretend. i have to change. i dont want 2004 to chase me.
im sorry that im not commenting. but i read everything. i just need to be in a better mood. thats all..
xo Jolie
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[12 May 2005|10:02pm] |
I SUCK, YOU ROCK
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[01 May 2005|09:01pm] |
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 bouncy |
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music |
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Adam and the ants of cors haha |
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Haha i've just found out Adam Ant apeared in one of the episodes of "La femme Nikita"! In third season i think. That's so cute haha. And i wanna have the same ribbons, dude! Look:
yeah it's him. my sis is a fan of Nikita, same 'bout me. when she sees this picture she will die laughing haha. she hates guys in make up arghh oh well, we're quite different. you wouldn't guess we're fucking sisters..
anyway i am prepering for exams witch is not easy considering my laziness and a lot of free time that i prefer spending on other more interesting things...ehh ya know, i found this quote:
"Every day of my life I feel I'm not as good a writer as I could be, I'm not as intelligent as I could be, I try and constantly read to improve my mind and get a better perspective on world history. Nobody's ever gonna get good enough to know everything, but I think I try - which is more than a lot of people do." - Richey Manic
It helps me mobilize...and i have to study history, so there you go haha same as Richey.
<333 take care everybody.
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| THAT IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY |
[27 Apr 2005|05:56pm] |
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 nostalgic |
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and btw 18/20 pkt means 90% at the english exam.
lost> i somehow miss you you crazy bitch :D
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[26 Apr 2005|09:44am] |
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bored |
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dcfc and nin |
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I'm fucking BORED! My life's boring. argghh i don't even stay at home. i spend most time with ppl and still I AM BORED ;( someone please do something so i won't feel so empty.
( sunday pictures )
<333
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| CALL ME FUCKER. |
[16 Apr 2005|11:35am] |
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radio no. 3 |
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ahh no just kidding...
so yesterday i finnished school. now uni is waiting for me. so all the students went to school for the last time (thank God should i add). Miss T. told us she liked our class which is unbelievable lol. anyway after school i went back home and then with some ppl from my class we went drinking like some homeless ppl in the most dark place so the police couldn't see we're drinking in a public place..and yeah there was a police but we menaged to hide everything....cool enough.
who will come up with some name for my guitar?
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| I NEED MORE FRIENDS |
[14 Apr 2005|02:19pm] |
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peaceful |
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kings of convenience - homesick |
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Yep. i need more friends but it's so hard to make friends with anyone...huh or maybe i'm just strange.
YES I AM STRANGE STRANGE STRANGE AS FUCK.
I love to swear in any language. There were few ppl who told me to stop. I said i'll try. And i tried. Believe me i did but i just love cuss that is all.. So theres a lot of shit happening in my life at the moment. I have to give a speech on Wednesday and week after that i have to give a speech in english. Then on the 5th of May I will have to show my skills in writing in polish on the exam and then in english on the next exam and then i will have a history test. And you know what? I have to pass all of these exams veryyyy good. Otherwise i won't get to uni. So i will be stressed and scared until the 19th of May and it sucks.
Wish me luck lol. I will do my best.
( my legs are not straight. tragedy :( )
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| HA HA HA |
[10 Apr 2005|07:26pm] |
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FINALLY I HAVE MSN so if anyone wanna talk i'm waiting :D (my english is terrible btw xD)
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| POPE IS DEAD |
[02 Apr 2005|10:48pm] |
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there's nothing more to say. crying..
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| Oh God...its bad |
[01 Apr 2005|12:16pm] |
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Air |
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Today i went to school and on a french lesson i started to feel very sick so i asked if i can go out of the classroom. The teacher was scared cos i was so pale...so now i'm home and feeling good but it was so strange! i almost passed out.
( two old pictures i found on my computer and still like them )
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| These are the things i love |
[22 Mar 2005|05:38pm] |
So, I was at school and there was nothing to do as always and it DOES BOTHER ME. Every time when i'm sitting at my desk at school i'm thinking about 100 million other things i could do at the time. SCHOOL = BOREDOM.
We don't do anything anymore. We just sit there waiting for the scarrryyyy exams to come. Really I would prefer to learn at home than doing nothing at school. IRRITATING! Oh and teachers TEACHERS LOVE telling me i'm an idiot and i'm not gonna pass this fucking exam, le baccaloreat, matura fucking SHIT! Hate my life HATE IT!
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